Buh-bye 2016, Hello 2017.

Dear all readers at plus you,

Another year is at an end and 2016 has been an…experience (think that’s the polite term to phrase it) with Brexit, an orange for the united president elect, and after so many deaths such as David Bowie, Christina Grimmie and Alan Rickman (they hurt). After such a bad year for the world it was a so-so year for me.

However, I don’t want to talk about the previous year but I do want to wish you all the best for the year ahead in 2017. I hope this one is the best year for you all.

Loads of love,

Alexandra

xxx

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Dear Winter – Remembering Loved ones

Dear Winter,

It’s a time of year where you remember loved ones that are around but also the people who are not around that would be either dead or alive. 

This year it’ll be the first year that I’m away from family this Christmas and spending it with my boyfriends loved ones. Who I love dearly but I’m still feeling rather homesick. We have a tradition that my mum carried forward with my nana Julie giving her children pyjamas for Christmas Eve for the pictures the next morning. 

When I was younger my granddad george told a story of my nana Joan when they first got married. How they couldn’t afford even a normal sized Christmas tree but granddad george brought home a tree and my nana Joan made that tree looking beautiful with all the love she had. Over the years the had this beautiful snow village that I used to play with on the fireplace (it was never lit, the fireplace). 

In 2010 my friend passed without a warning, taut Christmas was hard because a couple of days after my nana Joan had cancer which I found out over Facebook of all places because my granddad didn’t know how to private message. Though I remembered the Christmas spirt and persevered.

Remembering loved ones mean they don’t have to be in the other room / sleeping / dead it maybe that person can’t make it to Christmas but, but, you’ll still remember them. You’ll call them to make sure they’re alright this Christmas. To hear their voice on Christmas, and to smile once you hear them. 

The holidays are about remembering for me. I’ll remember family, and call them who are still around today. Remember those who aren’t but still have a special place in your heart. 

So; have a wonderful Christmas this year or hannakah or what ever holiday you celebrate this year. 

Loads of love, 

Alexandra 

Xxxx

Dear Winter – The previous weeks

Dear Winter,

I can feel the air getting chillier by the day, and the Christmas is filling the atmosphere.

However, I want to talk about the previous weeks leading up to Christmas since it’s only next week, and only two weeks till 2016 is officially over and it is the beginning of a New Year which is ever so exciting.

It was S birthday in the beginning of November and we had a little party with his close family friends and family. Officially he’s a quarter of a century now, and he is handsome as ever. His mother decorates the best cakes in town and added his favourite sweets.


Passing my assessments at university and getting feedback on how to make my projects better than they already are, and a blonde moment with forgetting one project that is currently on going but seeing my classmates work really helped on what they would like to see. Which I am currently working on.

The decorating of the tree was quite emotional for me this year than all the previous years but I guess it was the reminder of my nana Joan but I will save that story for another Dear Winter post.

I adored the past month, but Winter is still on going.

Love,

Alexandra xxx

p.s if you could stop raining for a moment, that will be amazing.

Pills and sticks. 

This is a very personal post, and putting myself quite vaurenable position here but on with this show! Still on my phone too, so sorry about the grammar. 

Hey beautiful creatures, 

I have been on birth control for 6 years. So a very long time, the main and big reason why I went on the pill was because my periods were to heavy and it was irregular the pill somehow stopped that thank goodness. 

In April 2014 I decided to go through with the implant, I had an ex that I didn’t trust and when we eventually started having sex in July I wanted to make sure I was in controll. Plus the pill I was always a bit iffy about because some of my friends had gotten pregnant with it and I never heard anyone getting up the duff with the implant. So July came and I did make him wear a condom too, V card is out the window. 

Since I had the implant I have never felt sick, I have always gained weight. Plus I haven’t had a proper period (to what I know it as) since November 2011. 

Now, 2016 in late November I started to show signs that the implant effect was not effective. It started with cramps, and I had them before, but it felt like someone having two heavy boxes on your side. I was bleeding, and it wasn’t a nice bleeding either.  Had to make sure that there was no obvious stains in that region and I still have acne all around my face. I have gone off chocolate for awhile too. Then I was throwing up. So what the heck is going on? 

When I went to the local sex clinic, I told my nurse this as well. Told her the symptoms, got asked to do a pregnancy test for the just in case moments and a swab to see any STI’s doing they’re thing. All came out negative. Then she gave me the pill. Again. Just to top up the effect of the implant. However she told me that she doesn’t think it’ll help much truthfully but I am taking the pill. 

 It’s clear to see after taking pill with the implant I have gained so much amount of weight, acne is still visible on my face and getting more each day, and my hair gets so greasy after a day. Plus the pill gives me nightmares, I can’t sleep. With no sleep I have no energy. My boobs hurt all the time (especially the right one). 

I don’t really want to be on any birth control in the new year other than condoms for awhile at least. 

Think that’s me done moaning for now. 

See you soon over the moon, 

Alexandra 

Xxx